Chapter 14.
“Females don’t deserve life. Look, I will guide her to
make her male, so that she too may become a
living spirit resembling you males. For every female
who makes herself male will enter the
kingdom of heaven.”
--Jesus
It’s been a few days since we last spoke, God, and I must admit, sometimes I feel like it’s difficult to reach out, to connect, with you, like we have a ‘bad connection’ sometimes.
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Very funny. Well, if you’re there, please speak English, so I don’t think I’m crazy, like everybody else does, for speaking to you.
Everybody thinks you’re crazy, because you talk to God?
No, not because I talk to you–a lot of people do, in prayer; they think I’m crazy because you talk back.
And these people read the bible? They believe in God?
Most of them, yes.
Then they must think that every person who wrote in the bible is crazy, since they also claimed that God was telling them what to write. Moses, even Jesus, must have been crazy, for they got their information from me.
That’s different–they had more proof to back it up. They also had those miracles....
You do not think that this is a miracle–what you are writing?
Well, no....everybody can write.
Everybody can walk, too–does that mean that Jesus walking on water was not a miracle?
It was a miracle, because nobody else could do it.
So, if you were living in a land of all cripples, except for you, would you be performing a miracle merely by walking, even on the ground?
Well, no...well....I don’t know...hey! I’m supposed to be questioning you here!
No, you’re not. That’s the problem–you question me too much. You question that God is really talking to you–that you are ‘unworthy’ of hearing my voice, you even question that I exist, sometimes.....
....Because I am re-acting to what my eyes see, not what my real eyes, my faith, real-ize, to be then act-ing, and making you real. Of course this is God, and of course this writing is a ‘miracle’, all writing is a ‘miracle’, because everything is a miracle. I’m finally getting it clear.
Thank God.
Thank you.
I didn’t mean literally.
Well, it still bothers me that sometimes I have trouble ‘connecting’ with you–like I’m trying to call, on the phone, and nobody’s home, or I’m getting a ‘busy’ signal.
That’s a good thing, Will, because it means we are closer.
How is that?
Well, if you keep calling somebody on the phone, over and over, and keep getting a ‘busy’ signal, that would mean they are where?
My ex-girlfriend’s house.
Okay–if you kept calling yourself, you’d get a ‘busy’ signal, right?
I see where you’re going–I’m trying to ‘reach out’ for you, and I’m not ‘connecting’ because you’re right here, with me.
Yes–you are looking for something that you already have. Being friends with somebody, even God, involves three steps–step one is to ‘find’ them, two is to ‘connect’ with them, and three is to ‘be’ with them. People who attend church a lot are usually on the first step, ‘looking’ for God. People who pray often, in solitude, are usually on the second step, ‘connecting’ with God. People who make little conscious effort to reach God, realizing that every place if holy (not just church), and that every thought is a prayer, they are on the third step. That is the step you are on. You don’t need reinforcement of others to feel secure that your faith is real, don’t need the bible to know what is ‘right’. Eventually, you (your soul) will never have to make an effort to ‘reach’ me, for I will be in you all the time. You will, literally, ‘be’ God.
But sometimes I still feel like you’re ‘not home’.
Then leave a message.
God has an answering machine?!
God is an ‘answering machine’. In case you haven’t noticed, I repeat the same ‘message’ to you time and again–it may be in a different form, but all conversations lead to the same conclusion.
Yes, I get the message already!
You get the same message–how to atone.
So, if you’re ‘not home’ I should “leave the message at the sound of ‘a-tone’”?
Yes! You ‘get’ it! You cannot ‘give’ what you do not first ‘get’, but you ‘get’ the message, so now you can give the message. The message of love. So, ‘leave the message’. Leave it again and again, until you be ‘leave the message’. Then you will ‘believe’ the message, for you will connect with others, in the name of God, leaving my message with them. Once you ‘believe’ the message, you will know God is with you, for God will be with you, for God will be you, for you will be love.
Love is the cause, not the effect. I should be cause.
Why?......
Because.
But, it is difficult to love, when nobody loves me.
Since you are a re-acting being, re-acting to how others treat you. A re-acting male, re-acting with less love when not loved. But you can be an act-ing being.
How?
Act. Like an actor, pretend others love you, and act upon what you pretend. You wish to be loving–‘tender’, so before you be ‘tender’ you must be ‘pre-tender’, or a ‘pretender’. This you are, Will, whether you believe in now or not. You are a champion. A pro. The others, who work against you, they’re merely ‘con-tenders’.
I coulda been a ‘con-tender’!
But you are not, yet you create them, because others re-act to your love, and love less and less because of it.
Why?! Why must I be hated for loving?!
To create balance, this is necessary. The woman will try to maintain balance, by ‘not-loving’ when she is loved. She is there to create ‘woe’ for the ‘man, thus the name ‘wo-man’. Imbalance occurs when the man reacts by ‘not loving’, and there is no love. It is up to you to love anyway, thus try to ‘evolve’ your spirit to a more God-ly state, and pass that on to the next ‘generation’ of your soul. Remember, it is the man’s role to advance the species, and the woman’s role to reproduce the species. It will take several generations before any ‘overall’ (for at that point our ’all’ will be ‘over’) balance is obtained.
You’re saying that I’m condemned, my whole life, to not be loved, to be persecuted, to suffer, because I choose to love?!
Christ suffered as well, choosing to love. You are much like him.
So crucify me!!
Exactly. Only it is not me doing it. It’s other people, re-acting people, not loving, in reaction to your loving. In fact, that is one of the ways you know you are acting with love, real love, when others ‘not love’ you for it. Since you, too, are re-acting, you must force yourself to love at that point, and it is the most difficult thing for you to do. It is also the most God-ly thing you can do–to love somebody who is not loving you, (indeed, I do it, all the time, with you!) for you are simultaneously ‘loving’; ’creating’, out of nothingness, that love, for it is not a re-action to anything, and ‘acting’ which only I do. It is this behavior which your planet desperately needs, and this behavior which will balance the grand design. It is ‘forcing’ your love which will allow you, and others, to ‘c’ God, and ‘c’ the light, and ‘c’ who they truly are. ‘Forcing’, literally, is ‘for’ ‘c’-ing. Do not just love those that love you....
‘....love you enemies, do good to them which hate you, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be children of the Highest; for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil.’ That’s Jesus (as if you didn’t know!). So, I should not only perform this ‘Highest good’, I should not think that my enemy, or even you ‘owe’ me anything if I do it.
And that is pure love, for I love unconditionally, even the most sinful of you, and I will not ‘punish’ you if you do not return my love( contrary to what organized religions teach). I do not think you ‘owe’ me anything. That is the difference between ‘Goodness’ and ‘Godness’–the ‘o’. ‘Goodness’ is love that is done with the expectation of a reward–that they ‘o’ you something. “Godness’ involves not that ‘o’-ing. ‘Godness’ contains only one ‘o’, for to love, in God’s way, is to have one way ‘o’-ing–you give with no expectation of a return. At this point, it is ‘o’nly such loving that can ‘even’ out what has already been done. And that is why Jesus came, with this new message, for the old ‘version’ of love was not enough then. And it certainly is not enough now. That is also why people don’t love you back, for then you’d only be loving those who love you, thus not ‘gaining ground’ on the ‘right’ side, for even sinners love those who love them (making it not really love to begin with). In order to ‘love your enemies’ you must first have enemies to love.
I must be ‘like’ God, then.
You must ‘be’ God! God is not ‘like’, God is ‘love’. Be ‘love’ God. You call your religious beliefs ‘dogmas’, and many of them imply that you cannot be as God, I am ‘better’ than you, Jesus was ‘better’ than you, but I tell you now that you have it all backwards. You can be God–by loving, in the way we have just shown.
Some would call those words blasphemous.
Is not ‘imitation the sincerest form of flattery’? Did Jesus not say ‘I and the Father are one’? He claimed to be God, because (and be-ing ‘cause’)–he was God. So, shift your viewpoints, your ‘dogmas’, and listen to my one ‘dogma’–I call it ‘DOGMA I’.
And that would be?.....
Your old viewpoints, backwards......
You don’t need to spell it out again–‘DOGMA I’, spelled backwards is…
‘I AMGOD’.
To believe I am God, I will ‘act’ as God (love), and spare the world from ‘hell’. I still say that many people would call that blasphemy.
And I call it blasphemy to say that my love is conditional–that I ‘require’ things from you, That you ‘owe’ me. That you ‘o’ me! ‘Good’‘God’! ‘God’ is not ‘Good’!
‘o’, no.....
That’s ‘right’! No ‘o’s! No ‘o’-ing, only ‘b’-ing. Don’t ‘be’‘human beings’, ‘be humans, ‘b’-ing’. Don’t love and leave, ‘b’love, and ‘b’leave. It is not blasphemy to think you can be God, yet you do think that anyway, and that is what keeps holding you back. You re-act, rather than act–you love, and leave, for you love only to the point you are loved back, then you leave.
You said earlier that, as a male, I ‘not love’ when ‘not loved’, now you say I ‘not love’ when ‘loved’!
You do both–you ‘not love’ whether loved or not! That is why you now must ‘love’ whether loved or not, to create complete balance. As I was saying, you re-act, rather than act–you love, and leave, for you love only to the point you are loved back, then you leave. But if you ‘b’love and ‘b’ leave-- ‘be-lieve’ you can be God, then you can ‘be love’, then....‘be’–autiful! I tell you, the most un-Godly thing you can do is to not love somebody who loves you, for you are simultaneously ‘not loving’;’re-acting’; and destroying that which has been created (the love). God never destroys; only creates.
But you destroy people–you kill us all the time!
I do ‘kill’ you, but as I have stated, that is merely changing your form. When I take away a ‘liver’, when I ‘de-liver’, I also ‘deliver’...deliver you, right back to earth. Why can’t you understand this? You comprehend that energy cannot be created or destroyed–it only goes from one form to another, yet you cannot accept that ‘death’ is only the transforming of your life energy to a spiritual state.
I suppose that’s because I can’t ‘see’ that state.
When water changes ‘state’, evaporating from liquid to gas, you don’t ‘see’ the gas, so how do you know it’s still there?
I see the ‘new’ water fall to earth.
And you see the ‘new’ infants born to the earth! Anyway, to be God, you should act–concentrate on what you can ‘be’, not re-act to what you can ‘see’ (‘c’). ‘Be’-lieve, don’t ‘c’-lieve, for if you ‘c’-‘leave’, you ‘cleave’–you cut, cut a partition between you and God. However, if you ‘be’ me, then you ‘are’ me, and if you all ‘are’ me, you are my ‘army’. And you need an army to fight a war, even one against sin.
I know it’s somewhat off the topic, but you said before the most un-Godly thing you can do is to not love somebody who loves you; does that mean it is more unGodly than murder?–Killing somebody?
You believe that killing somebody is ‘un-Godly’?
It’s not?
Do I not ‘kill’ anybody? Indeed, I ‘kill’ everybody! How can doing what I do be considered un-Godly?
So I could just go around killing people, saying ‘I am God!’, and it’s ‘right’?
If you are doing so out of love, and, more importantly, not in reaction to what happened in the past, especially to what they did in the past. It is not the action that is un-Godly, but the reason for it. If you are doing so not out of ‘revenge’, but because they can learn no more in that bodily experience, then the act is God-ly. Obviously, you have no way of knowing this, only I do.
How can a person kill out of love? That’s impossible.
Is it? If somebody is suffering unbearably and you free them from their pain by killing them, is that not out of love? It is, because you do not wish to see them suffer anymore. You ‘feel’ for them—feel their pain. And if they wish to die, then it I even more so out of love, for that is freeing them to do as they please (die), and freedom is love. Usually at that point, you are ‘freeing their soul’, since their stay in that body is probably over anyway.
This is called ‘mercy killing’ by humans. Many people are against it, and oddly enough, the only real reason they give for believing it is ‘wrong’ is that they say God does not want it. ‘Thou shalt not kill’, they say. Yet, they also say that God is full of ‘mercy’. Okay, now why would a God full of mercy not want a mercy killing? Why would he want somebody to suffer more than necessary, especially if they do not want to live any longer? Did I not give you ‘free will’? Does that not include the freedom to end your own life, and not be ‘punished’ for doing so?
Ask yourself: why would a loving God make you choose between endless suffering on earth or endless suffering in hell?
What If I wish to kill myself, not due to pain, but merely believing I can ‘learn’ no more in this ‘body’?
If you can learn no more, I will end the experience for you. As in school, you can ‘drop out’ if you desire, then your spirit will just go back at that point, anyway, when you return. When people tell you to ‘stay in school’, they are talking about your spiritual education. Stay in ‘school’ until you graduate. Earn your ‘die’-ploma.
Now that’s ‘school spirit’!
The only question is–when will you attain the ‘Master’s degree’? When will your love be to the ‘degree’ of the ‘Masters’, such as Jesus? You are still in the ‘mine’ field, you know, and if you stay in a ‘mine’ field long enough, it is bound to ‘blow up’! Boom!
The Apocalypse.
You know the saying; ‘A mined (field) is a terrible thing; to waste’.
That bothers me, God–you keep saying that you never react, but isn’t that re-acting, to how we’ve lived? Isn’t that the ultimate reaction? That would mean you are acting just like us, which you said you never do.
That is re-acting, what I’d be doing (I’d be a ‘re-actor’, and ‘reactors’ sometimes ‘blow up’, do they not?).
Then I’m correct–you’d be a re-acting being, just like us!
No, because I’d be acting just like you, as you said. I’d be acting ‘re-acting’, thus act-ing, thus being God-ly–acting. You do the same when you ‘act’ acting, but when you are re-acting, you are not act-ing, you are doing what you are supposed to do–re-act, until you grow to your ‘act’-ual state, your former state–which is act-ing, to be ex-‘act’.
I’m an ‘ex-actor’, trying to become an ‘actor’ again.
‘Ex’-‘act’-ly. Or, rather, ‘act’-ly, for you must ‘act’ in order to do it.
So, how am I doing? Am I Al Pacino yet?
Hah! Try Alanis Morissette!
Come on, now!
Just being the ‘Devil’s Advocate’, Will. You do know that Al Pacino played the devil in that movie, don’t you?
And Alanis Morissette played God in a movie I just saw. They had a woman play God, when I have just learned that that’s not the woman’s ‘role’.
Isn’t it ironic?
Don’t you think?
Don’t you think, Will; now as you try to ‘remember’ your ‘lines’–don’t let your thoughts interfere with you speaking straight from your soul, as you ‘be’ God, coming from your pure, loving, original self, and tell, one final time what every-body who is some-body (and part of the sum-body) should do (for it is ‘due’!)–listen to the words of ‘He’ who gave us life. You first love He: be a ‘HE’ LOVER, then you will force love into yourself, then force love out onto others, then give a little space. And only if we all join and do this; all become a HE LOVER, join together as a ‘HELOVER’, force ‘LOVE’, thus becoming a
‘HELLOVER’,
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then give a little space, will this jumbled mess be the ‘HELL OVER’;
and we will have turned things around, then, at last have risen ‘OVER HELL’.
May the ‘force’ be with you!
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